“And though you were grown up by then, you felt as lost as a child. And though your pride was broken, you felt as vast as your love for him. He was gone, and all that was left was the space where you’d grown around him, like a tree that grows around a fence.” -Nicole Krauss [the history of love]
events from this week; (so far)
- collided with coworker, AND their hot coffee.. drenched. and smelly.
- broken high heel. in the “everyday”, “i am a sensible girl” shoes..still wearing them..so i balance my weight on my right foot.
- cop issued a “running a yellow light ticket”, it was yellow. not red. am i missing the point? it was at 7:30 a.m…
this weekend is the holiday christmas party. i am laura linney circa love actually.
we shall see what the future brings..
Bucket-ish (Wish) List:
- Make chalkboard frame for dining room
- Finish lighting in apartment (reading by a hall light doesnt qualify)
- Smile more, Laugh Louder
- Spend more weekends not drinking/Not being hungover
- Learn how to flirt.
- Trust my extincts
- Workout 4/5 Days a Week. Happily. Not Pouting.
- Continue to go to movies alone.
- Donate old workout clothes, including boyfriends hand-me downs
- Learn how to properly keep plants alive.
- Finish Paris cross-stitch
- Throw a dinner party
- Spend more time with Grandparents
- Make the bed every day
- Church at least every other Sunday
- Give Thanks.
- Pray for my friends & family before myself
WISH LIST
- lulu frost necklaces, perfect for thanksgiving dinner and NYE
- this cozy color cordinated book shelf
- bellas hair, and edwards arms..
since i last posted,
- i bought one of these. 2010 toyota rav4 sport edition. never thought i was going to get a 2010 but good luck was shinning down. it is my little baby for the next 3 years. we get along swimmingly.
- have been packing up all my belongings for move in day (tomorrow) into my very own 1 bed room apartment in hometown. in the summer i will splash in the pools, dive into the sanded beach volleyball courts and wave my parents down as they jet down the river in my front yard in their boat. but this winter i will paint, design, craft and style-ize my new pad. it is the very first time in my entire life where i feel like a space that i am paying for is actually going to be home. prior to this home was always mom & dads.
- lusted over him, woke up next to him, got over him. the him that fills up the blank space. rebound is too harsh. the boy who fills the void of no hkyplayer. who helps this newly single girl (after 5+ years)..get through the empty spaces.
..lot of change going on over here. all good things. happy almost 2-4 birthday to me. and happy almost thanksgiving eve- one of my most favorite nights of the entire year….
happy friday..xx
i am using this morning to try and determine how personal i am going to make this blog. only a few and far between know of my blog. random handful of friends. and i am doubtful they check it routinely.
we shall see.
About me
once upon a time, a girl traveled to a few of the worlds great cities. after a little bit of living & a whole lot of learning, she ended up right back where she started.....& could not be happier...
now for the next chapter.....
